Listening to: My Anime Song Collection
Reading: Mahou Sensei Negima (Magister Negi Magi)
Watching: Animax (Waiting for 'Appleseed')
Playing: A lot
Drinking: More Much Most
6 month later after the last journal entry, some things happen to me, gives some craziness, depressions, and lots more.
Let's start to what happen to me.
Practicing to draw humans.
I can play with their poses and eyes, but not face.
And especially the head's shape.
I can't form a good head shape to put their mouth, ears, and nose.
All I can put to my face shape is only the eyes.
Sometimes in drawing humans, I accidentally formed a mecha or a weapon.
Or maybe a dragon race creature, or else.
Cannot really concentrate for humans, tough.
More and more Hatreds..
I really want to leave this family, for some reason.
This family only gives me pains!!
And everytime they need something, they give all the burden to ME!
What's on thier mind!?
Why don't just tell me?!
I can jump off the roof!
And I won't be in this LIVING HELL!!!
Such a crazy living!
When I'm able to leave this family, make sure your 'fortress' wont be fallen!
I want to find somewhere to scream as loud as I can!!!
That's it... Enough....
My 'heart attack' seems to be stronger, makes whole of my body feels hurt.
Also, my mind feels don't want to be active.
Makes me feel sleepy all day.
I'm on an exam right now, actually.
But I didn't tell anyone yet.
Keep it a secret.
All this time, all I need, all I want, is not much.
A freedom, secondary mind, a "friend".